IVA!

 IVA!!

Everyone would be wondering who's this IVA. I would have mentioned this character twice I guess. And its time to introduce him. It comes from the common letters of our name.  For all the ears waiting, iva is my "MACHO MAN!". First let me tell how this man entered into my messy life. On May 26, 2024, I saw him for the first time in my life wearing a light blue shirt, walking with a cute smile on his face. I could still remember our first meet. On that same day I gave him a 2 second stare without my knowledge and you know what, this man didn't  even look back. On that second I have no idea of how he is going to change my life. Then eventually he became my cousin. I have no idea of falling for him but this universe has its own plan. As days passed like one month later I got a situation where him and myself have to travel and explore places for 3 days. I was so hesitate as I have no idea about him and for the first time I texted him. My first message was not hi or hey. I directly asked him "Are you okay with this?". I still couldn't believe how I got that much confident and texted a man who I barely talk and know only for a short time. His reply was like "I am okay with that!". Ahhhh why am I blushing! Then the day came and we went for 3 days with other two cousins. That 3 days I would never and ever forget in my life. Those days made me feel my worth, how love feels, and he taught me the great lesson of not getting settle for bare minimum. I could just see my macho man, the man I searched everywhere and what do those films say "Dream Boy". This was an year ago I was stuck in JULY 2024 and still living my life there. I haven't confessed but my man is an astrologer. He just finds me in all the situation and gets me correct. The worst part is he slipped but never fell :) 

Still this stupid heart beats fast every time when I hear his name. I am just having a  personal, happy and importantly peaceful life with him in my heart. I was just wondering how does this three days have so much impact and I was not able to move away from him. Every morning its his thought that always comes to my mind, the very next second I woke up. It's his thought that keeps me awake during boring lecture. Its his thought that always comes to mind wherever and whatever the song may be. Its his thought that comes to my mind when I was imagining a perfect life. I have no idea whether its only me or other people out there. I always have his voice in my head like 24/7. I will be having random conversation with him. I will be telling him how my day went. I will be in his house and will be talking to his family. I will be playing, fighting, cuddling and I am literally a typical married housewife  in my delulu. And you know what he is the only person who always comes and do cameo in my dream. Like ALWAYSSSSS! Living with those few memories with him and I have no idea of where it is leading me. Decided to carry him wherever I go and be with him. His memories are just ruling my heart and would never leave me alone. But that tiny little amount of hope will always be there sticking to my heart and waiting for his arrival. Though the possibility of us being together is just 0.1%, this stupid heart stuck there. I have almost imagined a perfect proposal plan for my man and it will definitely be at BEACH! No idea of what's gonna happen when I step out of my delulu and see the reality. Is it too much to pray for a man like this? Am I not worth having him? If he is not the one then why all these? May be he deserve better than me? May be he is my karmic partner? Whyyyyy??? The day when I get answer for all these  questions of mine, everything would be changed. Even though a lot has been happening, this heart always crave for atleast one day with him. The whole 24 hours, only him and me. I would spend every day recreating that day alone for the rest of life. 

At the end no matter what this universe would throw on me. He will always be my MACHO MAN! DOI! BUJUKKS! MY TYPICAL DREAM BOY! PERFECT PARTNER! and just waiting to type, FINALLY MY FIANCEE! 

With the hope on this universe, AANDHAI!💋



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