Should I or should I not?

For all these 21 years poor emotions handling is the one which makes me feel weak. I just cry easily like those sudden rainfall on a sunny day and even the anger makes me cry. That's the beauty of crying. We cry for all the moments, for all the emotions that we can't tolerant, which also includes happiness. But till 18 years I was not aware that I am emotionally weak. My college days were the ones which showed the different angle of myself. Then all of a sudden people started to get irritated of seeing me crying for all the discomforts that happen in my life ( especially when I felt hurt ). Do we really judge people only for the sake they often cry??? Crying is an emotion that differs from people to people and we can't expect everyone to handle the situation as you are. It may show them as weak but trust me that's their strength. They let go of the pain rather than storing it and carrying the weight. But now a days I just wanted to hide my crying. Not because I am judged but because I just don't want others to feel pity for me. Believe me controlling your emotions especially your tears are really tough job. You just wanted to cry so badly but you can't. You wanted to share your emotions with other people but you can't. Not because you can't, you just don't WANT!!! Today I desperately wanted someone ( Iva of course ) to lean on the shoulders and just cry out but I don't want. Being in this situation is really challenging for a person like me who always shares her feelings out and feel released. Crying alone is too difficult I promise. The question which changed me is , " how long are you going to depend on other people to handle your emotions". People are temporary even though they are your soul.  Then what should I do now??? Should I cry or should I not???