Life unscripted

 I wish your were here sitting next to me, I wish your were here smiling at me, I wish your were here dancing with me, I wish your were here laughing our heart out, I wish your were here mocking me, I wish your were here imitating others, I wish your were here sharing our secrets, I wish your were here cooking food together, I wish your were here to sleep with me, I wish your were here to run my hands inside your hair, I wish your were here insisting me to buy an hearing aid, I wish your were here to ask me talk quietly, I wish your were here to hold my hands, I wish your were here to hear my rubbish talk, I wish your were here singing songs for me, I wish your were here pampering me, I wish your were here calling me doi, I wish your were here to take me to a night ride, I wish your were here while I am missing you a lot, I wish your were here talking to me without closing your mouth, I wish your were here asking how my day went, I wish everything will change one day, I wish for US...

Running away from the problem is the easy way to make you regret later. But this will work at some places. Today I miss my home so much. I am not a person who always wanted to go home but to everyone's surprise I said, "I wanna go home". It's true when people say home is where the heart is. My go to escapism is my home. Whenever my world is falling apart, I just want to leave everything and go home. May be that doesn't solve the problem but trust me atleast it gives you the peace of mind to think and reset your mental health. Seeing your parents faces, your most comfortable environment, cozy bed, place where no one is going to judge you will definitely. For the sake of your parents happiness and them not finding that you are upset, you start to pretend to be happy and eventually that becomes your state of mind. This is what I feel whenever I feel like I wanna go home. But how long is the big question? Sometimes you would be in a place where there is no probability...

 IVA!! Everyone would be wondering who's this IVA. I would have mentioned this character twice I guess. And its time to introduce him. It comes from the common letters of our name.  For all the ears waiting, iva is my "MACHO MAN!". First let me tell how this man entered into my messy life. On May 26, 2024, I saw him for the first time in my life wearing a light blue shirt, walking with a cute smile on his face. I could still remember our first meet. On that same day I gave him a 2 second stare without my knowledge and you know what, this man didn't  even look back. On that second I have no idea of how he is going to change my life. Then eventually he became my cousin. I have no idea of falling for him but this universe has its own plan. As days passed like one month later I got a situation where him and myself have to travel and explore places for 3 days. I was so hesitate as I have no idea about him and for the first time I texted him. My first message was not hi or...

Believe me relationships are not easy. For the past two days I was hearing how my close friends were struggling in maintaining their relationship. This july really has something to do with relationships I guess. Last year I was in breakup at this same month and this year I felt really bad for my close ones. Literally everyone called one after the other. I was shocked to hear all their stories and I was mouth shut by this incident. Expressing love and being understood by our partners is very challenging especially in this generation where trust, loyalty, commitments, actions and time plays a major role. Either one of the partner fails to express or else fails to accept. Initially I was very confident that this relationships would be so nice and imagined all those cinderella stories. But it's just upside down. There would be days where nothings feels right and you just don't feel the same love anymore. Not all days are 50% and 50%. Some would be 60% and 40% and some would even be...

Life is so unpredictable. We crave for something but god has some other plans. Fortunately those plans becomes the most unexpected day of our life. We would literally never thought of such things to happen in our life. But expect the unexpected. On 12th of July I was literally shocked by the way of realizing how would our life be so unpredictable. Night out with muchii  and  two unexpected persons who came from nowhere  into my life. Having a whole  night with my friend atleast once in my life was my dream. That didn't happen for the past 4 years but now look what happened. We took bus at 9.40pm for a second show which was supposed to get started at 9.45pm. From catching that bus to walking 1km and climbing 5 floors to get in the seat which was already been booked by the guys of miracle. That whole night went so good  like thatttt tooooo gooodddd...I had a very good time.  Eating briyani infront of a closed shop under moon light with so many strangers. Shar...

 01.07.2024 Some days are really really close to our heart. We just live with that single day though years get passed away. Having that hope of one day recreating it in my life. But the reality hits hard that it never happens. This exact day 2024, everything is just upside down yet the most beautiful day of my life. Why am I cryingggg. I could still feel the exact same feeling with no change a year after. That night, beach, moonlight and of course IVA!!! Ahhhhh I just want that same day to happen again. But one year can change a lot and now I am writing this blog after waiting for the whole day for his call. Fake hope remained!