First LOVEEE

 AHHHHH why am I excited to write about my first love even though it ended sadly and reallyyy unexpected. Ok first lets talk about the best parts of it. I was 2nd year of my undergraduate and this boy came into my life. Initially we acted like i was his mother and he was my son. YEAH you heard me right we were like family with other 6 children and a random friend as my husband LOL!!!! We were so happy like we mock each other and he call me "MAA". Then unexpectedly we became best friends of nowhere. He was the first man in my life whom i called DEIII used all the existing bad words...Life on that point was really nice...I could really see my different ME...that shy girl turned into a romantic girl who had so much love for her man...I could still remember my first kiss...that moment was just magical...everything was smooth and i was literally in so much love towards him...that there comes the villan in my story...evil eye i guess played that role...lots of fights, misunderstanding and i was just losing myself which i realized later....to everyone's surprise i call off my relationship which I never thought would happen..."Everything happens for a reason" I don't think there is this term called unloving. When you truly love someone then there is no such unlove even though you don't have any sort of relationship... It's been a year so far but he still have that same place in my heart and this is forever no matter what...He will always be my big baby boy!!! I never blame him at any point...I should have been a little bit practical and must prioritize myself first. My love towards him blindfolded the real value of myself. Why I behaved so pleasing though i was not the victim??? I am too bad not to love myself??? But at the end after so many hurt this silly part of my heart always belongs to him...and yeah there is no theory of  UNLOVE💛

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