Life unscripted

For all these 21 years poor emotions handling is the one which makes me feel weak. I just cry easily like those sudden rainfall on a sunny day and even the anger makes me cry. That's the beauty of crying. We cry for all the moments, for all the emotions that we can't tolerant, which also includes happiness. But till 18 years I was not aware that I am emotionally weak. My college days were the ones which showed the different angle of myself. Then all of a sudden people started to get irritated of seeing me crying for all the discomforts that happen in my life ( especially when I felt hurt ). Do we really judge people only for the sake they often cry??? Crying is an emotion that differs from people to people and we can't expect everyone to handle the situation as you are. It may show them as weak but trust me that's their strength. They let go of the pain rather than storing it and carrying the weight. But now a days I just wanted to hide my crying. Not because I am judge...

 Stop thinking of people to behave in exactly the same way you are or you want them to be...People are different, Things are different, Time is different and Everything I suppose...I  always have this question like how he/she could do this??? Why people are reacting in this way??? Don't they think for a second before reacting??? Is it only me who thinks in this way??? I still have these questions and still finding the answers...Everyday we see people of different kind and characters. Some we admire ( Iva admired me a lot I guess ), some we feel so bad for their character, some we just hate a lot thinking how a person on earth think or behave like this. Having the people matching your thought process is very much difficult ( lucky to have few of them ) but on the same way accepting this difference are way more difficult. But the time you start to enjoy the feeling of exploring different kinds of people ( and again Iva thought me this ), life becomes interesting. You learn a lot...

 REMEMBER what goes around, comes around...Believe me this is damn true and I personally felt that...I came to this realization point recently....I am not a person who fails to value the person who values me...But for the past one year I personally felt I was literally not valuing the people whom I valued before....May be because I felt different or may be I am seeing things in different angle or may be I am....but you will not realize that you are actually hurting your beloved people until or unless it happens to you...That's how the realization point came...the day I felt I am not being valued by the person whom I valued the most made me to realize how harsh I am to do this exact shit to other people...how bad I was...Is this me really did that??? Atlast grateful for knowing and happy to loving....Everything we do to others one way or other it do come to you and gives you a nice slipper shot I believe....Be nice and KIND to others and that's the least thing we can do to the p...

Everyone atleast once in our life we have been through this phase called regretting...but in my point of view regretting is overhyped or i must say an emotion resulting from one which we never accept. Acceptance is a skill that requires lots of ability to acquire. When we fail to accept the decision we already made then it would eventually leads to regret. But what is the point of regretting after all had happened. It just pulls us away from the present and throw us to "would have phases". Done is done and nothing can be changed. I think I have no regrets in my life but then i would say next time I must more cautious. I must be patient enough to make any decisions in my life so that I would never end up regretting and so everyone of us. Regrets just destroys our peace. Accept what had happened and never repeat the same again, NEVER!!!

 I was so much in love with this..."love the unexpected" My mind works like a predicting machine which imagines all the possibility that could exists in this universe...so  mostly there is only disappointments in my life...but suddenly from nowhere there comes this unexpected thing in my life...that literally doesn't match any of my million guesses that runs in my mind...there comes this one....this unexpected happiness gives immense joy...I would feel like falling from 1000 feet...ahhhhhh i love those moments....there is difference in happiness between the things that we expect to happen and the unexpected to happen...but is this applicate for those unexpected awful moments too??? I guess YES OF COURSE🍂

 AHHHHH why am I excited to write about my first love even though it ended sadly and reallyyy unexpected. Ok first lets talk about the best parts of it. I was 2nd year of my undergraduate and this boy came into my life. Initially we acted like i was his mother and he was my son. YEAH you heard me right we were like family with other 6 children and a random friend as my husband LOL!!!! We were so happy like we mock each other and he call me "MAA". Then unexpectedly we became best friends of nowhere. He was the first man in my life whom i called DEIII used all the existing bad words...Life on that point was really nice...I could really see my different ME...that shy girl turned into a romantic girl who had so much love for her man...I could still remember my first kiss...that moment was just magical...everything was smooth and i was literally in so much love towards him...that there comes the villan in my story...evil eye i guess played that role...lots of fights, misunderstand...

 Thinking of what to write first is a very big deal like what should i talk first??? Too much of stuffs...too much of emotions like literally toooo much. And still i couldn't find out the one. Talking about my life would be definitely interesting. Let me first start with some random questions that always wander in my mind like ALWAYSSSS. Why me??? Am i too bad to undergo all these??? Why this is happening now i didn't asked for this??? What's gonna happen next??? Is this the end??? How am I going to handle all this stuff together??? If he is not my future then why did he come as cameo and played the hero role??? and you know which is the bigestttt question of all time-WHAT IF???🌑👑❤

This is NIA, an average middle class girl staying in India. I started this blog to express my mistakes, learnings, random stuffs in my life and yes...absolutely you will have love, friendship, family and other blahh blahhss.👀💕🙊